Our Hadlee...

Hadlee Jean Jones arrived on March 22, 2010 at 3:36 p.m.! She weighed 7 lbs. 1 oz. and 21 in. long! She had my round face but looked just like her dad and with a full head of thick dark hair!She was an angel and daddies little princess! Jones grandchild #12 and Wallin grandchild #5!!!

Her Hands... the nurses painted her fingernails and gave her a little bracelet!!!

Her Little Feet

Last Sunday, March 21st, at about 1:00 I started having contractions all about 5 minutes apart I also noticed earlier that morning I was feeling a decrease in movement. So finally at about 9:30 that night McKay and I headed to Labor and Delivery. The nurses set me up in a room and tried finding the baby's heartbeat with the doppler and couldn't so they called in Dr. Lunt to do an ultrasound to find the babies heartbeat and that's when we found out there was no heartbeat, we had lost our baby Hadlee. At this point the only thing to do was to induce me and speed up the labor process and deliver. I can't honestly tell you what was going through my mind or McKay's but maybe it was just a very bad nightmare. My mom came down and stayed with us that very long night. Finally on Monday at about 3:30 I delivered Hadlee and reality had finally seemed to come true, she didn't make a sound... she was stillborn. At my appointment Wednesday everything was fine! There are no answers as to why this happened... the cord was not kinked and not wrapped around her in any way... we had a choice of an autopsy but we decided against that... they did take a sample of the placenta to see if it was anything genetically but we won't get the results back for another week or two. The chances of this happening again are very slim... which is very reassuring!

I can honestly say this is the most challenging trial I have ever been through and I don't wish it upon anyone. The nurses were amazing!!! They made it easier on McKay and I and they were wonderful about letting us hold her and be with her as long as we wanted to. They tried to make things as normal as possible... considering the circumstances.The nurses made us a memory box that I will cherish forever... it had hand and foot molds, a lock or her hair, poems, hand and foot prints the dress and hat they took her beautiful pictures in and the little bracelet they put around her wrist along with the two blankets they wrapped her up in! Since at the time we didn't have anything for her since we came from Enterprise and everything went so fast after we arrived at the hosptial.

In this picture you have her hand and foot prints, the bracelet she wore, her hand and foot molds (which are unreal how exactly the same they are to her feet, they got all the wrinkles and everything), the lock of her hair and the two pink blankets they wrapped her up in and did her pictures with!I can honestly say we didn't think at the ages of 22 and 25 we would be planning a funeral for our daughter and picking out our own burial plots. The funeral went as good as a funeral could go! The spirit was strong and it was nice to have family, friends and neighbors close and all the support they gave us!

Our Hadlee Jean...

The sign-in table at the funeral...

Her and her casket and us at the funeral with all the beautiful flowers...

The beautiful flowers and displays of our precious girl at the funeral!...

Daddy carrying her to her resting place...

Getting ready to start the dedication of her grave...

Daddy putting his flower down after we had all the sisters, both moms and sister-in-laws put down there white roses...

Daddy, Mommy and baby Hadlee...

We were able to bury her with the blessing dress my mom made for me when I was an infant along with the knitted hat and blanket McKay's mom made for her!

Her obituary...McKay and I have been doing well! We know our little girl is where she belongs! Safe in her Heavenly Fathers arms and doing the work she needs to do with Him! We know she was a perfect being that all she needed to do was come to earth to recieve a body then return to Him again! She will be missed but happy to know from our faith that we will see her and be able to raise her again! We are so thankful for our Gospel and the knowledge we gain from it! We are happy for eternal families and the Plan of Salvation! We have grown closer to the Lord and closer as a couple! We Love Hadlee with all our hearts and happy we were so lucky to be her parents! She has many loved ones with her and we know she will be taken care of!Here are some poems and sayings I have really liked and thought I'd share:

My Favorite:

You never said "I'm leaving"

You never said goodbye

You were gone before I knew it,

and only God knew why

A million times I needed you,

A million times I cried

If love alone could have saved you

You never would have died

In life I loved you dearly

In death I love you still

In my heart you hold a place

That no one could ever fill

It broke my heart to lose you

But you didn't go alone

For part of me went with you,

The day God took you home.

When someone you love becomes a memory, the memory becomes a treasure.

Because someone you love is in Heaven, you feel a little Heaven in your home

We Love You Hadlee!